Again no chemo....

Even no picture today!

My neuro's went down again. 

Today 1.2!

Thursday we will try again.

Neuro's higher and higher.....

Let me tell you your love
keeps on liftin' me
higher,higher and higher.
I said your love keep on
liftin' me higher and higher.

Neuro's 1.6! So 99% chance I will get hooked up to chemo tomorrow!

At the end of a rainbow...

No chemo today..... my neuro's are still to low. Now 1.1.

Again disappointing. But Ruud and I made from a stupid day a nice day.

We went to the beach with the dogs. We took a ferry across the Noordzeekanaal. Fun!

Nest monday I will get my blood checked. If it's okay I will get my chemo next tuesday... We will see!

Now on tv...

In the daytime I will meet you as before.

                                                   You will find me waiting by the ocean floor,

building castles in the shifting sands

in a world that nobody understands,

In a morning.

it's the morning of my life

'Tis the morning of my life

No chemo today

Big disappointment! No chemo today!

My neuro's failed me.... 

A week ago on monday they where 0.1, Last friday 1.2 and today 0.8!

They have to be 1.5 at least!

Next friday we will try again.

Burn baby burn...

My big sis burns a candle in the Cathédrale Notre-Dame de Paris for me.

Sweety!

Mia as clini clown!

Party!!!

Mees is having a blast with his team (not the orange hats). 

They went to AJAX-AZ! They really had a great time! Only AJAX forgot to win...

Wonders....

Never knew..... There exists an eyelash grow serum!!! 

All I want to say is.... 

I WANT MY HAIR BACK AND GET RID OF ALL THE EXTRA MEDICINE POUNDS...

sunnyday

Sunny 4 °C. 

Walked the dogs in the parc. It seems all that I do. 

With the dogs to the beach or parc.  

Next to doing stuff with Mees and Kikki.....

Keeping low profile. 

Hospital said I had to look out that I don't get sick with such a low Neuro

So it's up to my creative friends to keep my blog interesting.

Where is all the fun stuff? Nice pics, movies, drawings etc.......

Check up.........

A friend of ours filmed us in the parc. To be premiered soon on my blog!

I went to the hospital today for my blood test. Neuro's extremely low... 0.1

Friday another check-up, blood test, and hopefully my last chemo next monday!

I have to make an appointment for my next scan. 

Somewhere in the week of 6th februari. Keep you posted.

Put a smile upon my face

© Salimah Gablan and Lies Musch made together as Plek a movie for Clau's Anatomy

'Once Upon a Time'

Addicted to series. 

And you would think in my situation I would choose other series but I like these two. 

One about a cancerman breaking bad and the other one of the blood specialst/serial killer, Dexter.

It's a way to spend my couch time..... (and that is a lot, unfortunately)

Speaking about blood..... my neuro's are 1.2 today.

A cat always lands on his feet

Went to the film with the kids after a long week of sitting inside. 

Like every first week also this week was heavy. 

Had pain while breathing, the internist wanted me to come to the hospital. It wasn't alarming. 

Not quite Disneyland

Christmas holidays. 

What better way to spend it than visiting your mom in the hospital during her 5th chemo.

But it was a little festive..... 

I got my scan results from last week and Olaparib is still doing its work. 

All tumors are normalised except for one. 

After the next two chemo's we will decide if we stop after 6 treatments or that I will get another 2. 

It depends, if the treatments are still effective.... For now they are!!!

New Year's Eve

Yesterday we celebrated New Year's Eve with friends on the Noordermarkt. 

Today is a new day, a new year.... new chances

Today I feel the fear for my results I will get tomorrow... 

And another chemo which I don't feel like having.

Happy moments

Kids had a 4 day course speed skating on the Jaap Eden Baan. 

They had a lot of fun and so did I.

Extra check-up

Last friday I got an extra bloodtest. Mees and Kikki went along. 

Neuro's where 0.8. Good enough to go for my 5th chemo next monday.......

11th monday morning check-up

No blood pictures..... but a happy one

Neutrophil granulocyte is 0.3

Also had my CT Scan today. Monday 2nd of januari 2012 we will get the results.

Antwerp

Christmas shopping in Antwerp with the kids and dogs.

Not a really long day but a nice day. 

We shopped for two hours and ate Belgian Waffles along the way.

On our way back home we invited ourselves for dinner with friends in Laren.

A good start of the christmas holiday

10th monday morning check-up

Neutrophil granulocyte is today 1.0. Healthy people have 7.5. 

For the next cure it has to be 1.5

Thanx for all your christmas cards!

Stormy weather

Wijk aan Zee.

Had to get out of the house. Was getting sick from sitting inside...

View from my office...

Had my 4th chemo yesterday...

Ruud and me tanked up

We went to Monnickendam and toured in the backgarden of Amsterdam, Waterland. We stayed in hotel/restaurant "De Posthoorn". It was wonderfull! 

At arrival in our room we found 3 bags with presents and an enveloppe what told us that the arrangement in "De Posthoorn" was given by Doreen, Pieter, papa and mama. Too much..... I cried.

Besides all the presents they took care of the children, dogs, soccer, hockey. Cleaned the house. Wiped the windows. Placed a christmastree outside. Painted the kids rooms.....

Too much to thank for. How can I ever repay? What will we do without them?

Golden times arrived

Saint Nicholas gave Kikki a Golden Hamster. Kikki named her Karlie! 

Sorry, Carli....

9th monday morning check up

Low on white blood cells. Nothing new under the sun!

I sound like a broken record...... tired, tired, tired

Saint Nicholas, good holy man!

We had a great day!

Our 8th year with the "real" Sint! It was wonderful!

A day not blogged is a day not lived...

nothing to tell....

The sun is shining, a day for myself, been to the park with my dogs, a good day!

Ruud is my Dexter....

Today in the elevator of the AVL. Was there for my 8th blood blood analyse... every monday... 

I've got my own bloodstain pattern analyst his name is also Ruud. Never saw him. He works in the lab at AVL. 

I see his name on the tubes with blood. He analyses my blood on the scientific disciplines of biology, chemistry, mathematics and physics....  If an analyst follows a scientific process, this applied science can produce strong, solid evidence, making it an effective tool for investigators,.....my oncologists.

The Leco look

I just saw Leco van Zadelhoff on TV. I have my flaws.... I love Leco hair (and Marco Borsato) 

My mom promised me last year a treatment by Leco when my hair had grown back.

It's a long wait but one day I will look like Leontien....

Loving Parents

Mom and dad came by to help around the house. 

Dad worked outside.....(high pressure cleaner)

What must I do without them!!!

Couch potato

First week after 3rd chemo. I'm tired. 

But also bad-tempered. 

It's temporary.... Maybe tomorrow or in a few days I will find my good mood back.

Otherwise I have finally something to talk about with my shrink.

Palingrock

Went to Volendam this sunday....... 

Laughed our heads off........

Third round of chemo

Yeahhh!!!

Goalie!

  4-0 for Kikki!

La nouvelle coupe....

Artwork © Irena Ruben

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends

I get high with a little help from my friends

Gonna try with a little help from my friends

My shrink says you have different kinds of aid.... Head, Heart, Hands.

Some friends surf on internet, 

some friends you can talk with, some bring lyrics, 

some bring juices, some take care of my kids

and some friends cut my hair or give me hair...... 

Room with a view

Today a session with my psychotherapist. The view from her couch.

Talking helps. It gives us other views.

"Tree of Life"

© Salimah Gablan for Clau's Anatomy

Olá, Olá, Olaparib

Got my CT Scan today! Olaparib is doing his work! 

Reflections

Monday morning reds

 I've had my weekly check ups. All is well.

Rudi and Messi

I live a really dull life at the moment. I'm so tired that turning on the tv is already too much of an effort! But my incredible husband has a little more adventurous life! Ruud photographed the God of soccer, Messi, in Barcelona for an Adidas campaign yesterday! Ruud is my hero! And not only because he photographed Messi.....

Family picture

Taken with my last hair.